Today
one of my good high school friends came up to visit. We had been planning his
trip up to visit us for weeks and I didn't see a reason to cancel on him. In
fact it was probably a good thing to stay busy and do something fun, instead of
moping around in my house. Kyle showed up early that morning and we sat around
and talked for a while before going out for fun. We told him all about my
diagnosis. I don’t see a reason to keep it secret from anyone. It is a major
part of my life now, and not telling people just because I don’t want them to
feel sorry for me does everyone a disservice. Kyle was wonderfully supportive,
and it was really great that he never treated me like I was about to fall to
pieces. Telling him up front seemed to make the day go more smoothly, because I
never felt like I had to hide anything, or hold back any of the sarcastic
cancer jokes I felt like making all day. 
We
began our tour of the valley on Main Street. Kyle loved the music store, and we
all bought more chocolate than we should have at the Bluebird. Lunch was a hot
dog roast at Second Dam. Then we went geocaching up the canyon. Kyle even found
the first one! It was his first geocaching experience and I think we converted
him. It has become one of our favorite cheap date night activities. From there
we went out to Gosner’s to show Kyle why Cache Valley’s dairy is the greatest on the planet.
Our
final activity of the evening was going over to Kyle’s sister’s house for
dinner. It was fun to meet her, her husband, and their adorable son. Dinner was
delicious and for desert we had the pie that Kyle and I had made in honor of pi
day! (3.14.15) After dinner we played some games and just had a good time.
The only difficult part of the
day was holding Kyle’s nephew and wondering when or if I would have a baby
of my own. I think that may be something I am just going to have to get used to
over the next several years. Even after the chemo is over it is not recommended
to have kids for a couple of years. This is when the chance of reoccurrence is
the highest and you can't do the necessary monitoring PET scans while pregnant.
It can also be a problem to get pregnant and then relapse because you would not
be able to have treatment. I think this uncertainty about fertility and when or
if I will be able to start my family will be the hardest part of this whole journey.
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