Hello! Here is the weekly update, although I’m not sure how
much I have to report. Like I mentioned before, most of the side effects were
cleared up by last Thursday and I have felt really great all week. I’ll keep
you posted on how I'm doing after my infusion today. The hardest part has been school.
After a month of jam packed days, and only going to class a handful of times it
was hard to get back in to the rhythm of things. It’s like I've realized how
much more there is out there besides school work. That being said I was still
able to study for (and get an A on) a test! I had missed so much class I wasn’t
sure if I knew enough to do well. Lucky for me I have a great friend who is
even willing to go to class and takes notes for me! Other exciting school
things that happened this week include finishing my last ever group project and
writing my last college paper (YAY!). It just seems unreal that I only have a
final project and three exams between me and graduation. I have been having a
minor crisis of identity as I try to sort out who I am going to be without
school. Being a student has been the core of my identity as long as I can
remember, and I have spent so many years in a class room. Guess we'll just
have to wait and see and trust that it will all work out. I am looking forward
to never having homework again!
Today
is my second infusion and I am getting it as I write this. I did a much better job
packing my bag this time. I have my fuzzy blanket, plenty of snacks, a book,
and a fully charged laptop. I’m all set to get pumped full of poison. It really
is strange how quickly you can adjust to crazy things. I’m not sure how soon this one will affect me, but I can promise you that there will be no pastrami sandwiches in the near future! That seems to be the most difficult part, all of
this not knowing how you are going to be feeling and not being able to
plan for things because you just don't know. Maybe after this one I'll be able
to establish some kind of pattern for how treatment makes me feel.
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There
was one part of this week that I did not expect though; the massive amounts of
love and support I have received from so many of you! I finally made the blog
public on Sunday and the response has been slightly overwhelming! You all are
so sweet to have spent so much of your time reading what I’ve written down. I
have received more sweet messages and texts this week that I have any right to.
It has been so wonderful to hear from so many friends and family that I haven't
spoken to in a long time. I could never have predicted the number of people
that care so much about Chase and me. Your gifts, messages, and words of
encouragement have done so much to make me feel loved and cared for. I truly
could not ask for a better support system. Thank you!! I also need to take a moment
to give some recognition to my sweet husband who has done the dishes, picked up
the house, and still managed to find time to work on his senior design project,
work, and do well in school! He deserves an award for being so loving and
patient with me! Not that I’m pampered you understand, he is also very diligent
in making sure that all of this attention doesn’t go to me head and I remember
to be humble. He has a gift for making me remember that having cancer does not
allow me get away with everything I want and he still encourages me to set
goals and improve every day. What would I do without that man??
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